(c)2010 Joan M. Newcomb
(This is a follow-on from my regular blogpost/Ezinearticle) Pritnear all energy techniques are ways to avoid discomfort. We want to feel better, plain and simple.
As Essence, we are Joy. Most folks think that they’re their body/personality, so spend a lot of time and energy looking outside themselves to grow spiritually. In Truth, We *are* Spirit, here to enjoy the physical world. Many folks have figured that much out, that to get in touch with their Essence they have to turn within.
A step further than this is that there’s nothing you have to do, looking inward or looking outward, because You already *are* Essence/Expanded/Infinite. Certainly, there’s no needing to learn anything, because You already Know – You *are* Wisdom. You’re not only connected to the Cosmic Internet, You *are* the Cosmic Internet!
As far as comfort/discomfort, pain vs. joy, from an Infinite viewpoint there is no good or bad to any of it. It’s the whole point of being here in physical form: to experience dichotomy, to experience other than who You are.
So from an Essence perspective, it’s all good. Being uncomfortable is just an interesting sensation. I’ve known several people who’ve become at ease with their discomfort and then have experienced radical ‘healing’ of their condition. Someone with shingles on their *face* cleared it up within 3-4 days, simply by reclaiming power from the illusion of discomfort.
What I’ve noticed myself, in dealing with jet lag and emotional discomfort the last couple days, is a revelation of a core pattern I’ve created my life from. Let’s see if I can summarize it succinctly -
My life tends to be about being of service. I’ve been an energy worker/healer/reader since 1981 (I was 22 when I started). On a personal level, I prioritized the well being of my husband and my kids (what woman doesn’t, however). On a professional level, all my energy goes into serving clients and students. It spills over personally in that I rarely talk on the phone if it’s not a client call. Even non-professional situations (support groups, volunteer moderating a group, etc.) I treat professionally. Which means I end up not receiving from others.
I knew some of this came from my mother – we grew up mostly overseas and she wasn’t allowed to join women’s groups or work (the reason why will be mentioned in the next paragraph), so she experienced a fair amount of isolation.
I didn’t realize until yesterday how much of this came from my dad. My dad was a covert agent for the CIA; my siblings and I didn’t know until we were teenagers what he really did for a living. What this meant for us was that we were his ‘cover’. We, including my mother, made him seem legitimate. Any holiday or weekend trip from where ever we were living were actually an opportunity for him to meet with someone while we played on the beach or were at a museum. What this meant for him is that he was always ‘on’. Always alert. Our home was bugged, our mail was censored (when we were younger we didn’t know this).
Not to go too into the story of my childhood, how this has reflected in my adult life is always being energetically ‘on’. I operate with a high awareness level since I’m a professional clairvoyant and natural empath.
With my father it was never safe to be vulnerable – he would emotionally attack you if you revealed yourself too much. Growing up we had to be the perfect family, so his cover looked good, but we couldn’t draw attention to ourselves. It could lead to our being killed, if not by others, by him. As an adult if I made the mistake of sharing too much in an email, it would come back at me in painful ways.
So as I was walking my dogs, experiencing discomfort, I realized that I have this concept that it isn’t safe to be vulnerable. I’ve dealt with the concept that the Universe isn’t benevolent (God the Father will verbally attack you when you’re not looking). So this is a deeper level of things.
How I’ve translated it is being a spiritual teacher and mystic mentor coach, I have to be one step ahead of my students and clients. The fact I’ve been doing this 30 years gives me a natural leg up, but if I go through a natural growth period, or experience temporarily being overwhelmed by ‘gremlin’ voices, this somehow will make me less than in their eyes. Why should they pay me if they’re ‘better’ than I am?
In truth, there is no better nor worse. There is no time or space, so 30 years or 6 months is an illusion. People can be more capable with less experience. We all have created uniquely valuable experiences to color our lives with.
People pay me to be their teacher or coach because of my experience, and because this is my main focus. Their lives are filled with other things to focus on and I help them turn their attention back to their Essence, and get in touch with their Inner Wisdom. Coaching acknowledges that You are the expert in your life, and in my classes I tell folks that they already know all this as Essence, it’s just training their bodies (or raising their form’s vibratory level so They can embody it more).
This is leading me to a whole additional thing to talk about, but that’s for another blogpost.
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